Danny stood and looked out at the ocean, as the storm clouds rolled in and the waves grew choppy. He watched with blue eyes until the grey waves roiled and changed and looked to him that they were boiling, until they drew his vision into the depths, and each curve, each collision, was a horrible impossibility, a twisted flow of energies that made him think of the unseen and unheard.
(Blue, green, grey, white, or black; smooth, ruffled, or mountainous; that ocean is not silent.) It started to rain now, in cold sheets. The police tape had been taken down. The evidence had been collected by the forensics teams. Now all that had to be done was the clean-up--the beach patrol would probably be by to turn over the sand so the runes were gone.
Step by step, his feet sinking slightly into the soggy ground, he walked over to the strange symbols the cult had made, congealed lines of unremarkable brown stained in the sand.
For the most part, he tried not to think about the implications of being half-dead other than how they affected his life directly. The powers and how he used them to fight were important, and so was the Ghost World and his out-of-place status in it. What he really was, was a question that was still unanswered, but that was tied to the very human adolescent question of "who am I?"
Rarely did he think of what it really meant to be one of the unseen.
(Sometimes I believe that this less material life is our truer life, and that our vain presence on the terraqueous globe is itself the secondary or merely virtual phenomenon.)This meant that he usually never considered the idea that perhaps there were things out there unseen to even
him, things deeper and more terrible than any ghost he could ever meet, than any twisted locale in the Ghost Zone he could have the misfortune of wandering into.
Danny wanted to see them or at least know they were there. It was in his nature to be curious--that was what had gotten him zapped full of ectoplasmic energy and irrevocably changed into something inhuman in the first place.
It was like...he was the bridge between the solid world and the one that wasn't.
He had to know what was there that could possibly cross over. He had to know what he had to keep
out.
Sam had originally said it was just a book and there was very little evidence that the original had been real and not an invention of Lovecraft's, but that...thing that had bubbled out of nothing made them all think otherwise, and Danny had to know for sure.
That was why he'd come back one last time, even though his friends had told him that maybe it was best that he didn't.
That was why he thought carefully for a moment, looking back in his memory for the right words, and repeated what the cultists had said in a whisper, stumbling over the words:
"Ph'nglui mglw'nafh Cthulhu R'lyeh wgah'nagl fhtagn..."(We shall see that at which dogs howl in the dark, and that at which cats prick up their ears after midnight.)~CHOOOOMMM~ It was thought that could only be described as sound, drums in the deep.
~CHOOOOMMM~ Danny couldn't stop himself from imagining a huge crevice appearing in his brain, out of which black tentacles crept, spreading, spreading, coming out of his eyes and mouth and nose before he had a chance to scream. They wrapped around his face, and he saw miles out, into a place that was there and yet wasn't, into the dark and deep.
~CHOOOOMMM~ An iridescent eye opened and was staring back at him, as terrible thoughts twisted and writhed to life in his bound mind, like whalesong, but alien. But also...not so alien, like some deranged lullaby.
~CHOOOOMMM~ And the worst part of all was that somehow, in some way, Danny knew the great corpulent, slimy being was just some spawn-thing.
Not even the strongest.
It made him want to scream even more. It made him want to claw out whatever eyes were letting him see just so that he didn't have to look at it anymore.
Then the eye closed and when he came out of the dark, he woke up to find himself lying face up on the sand, the rain pelting his face. He was staring up at the sky, shaking and wondering how it had come to be that there was something that could make ghosts tremble and quake in fear at night.
His mouth felt wrong.
"Gah!" Hands went immediately to his eyes, his mouth, his face, feeling for tentacles, feeling for his head to be twisted into some unnatural slimy shape, but all he found was wet skin. He rolled out of the circle as quickly as he could and blasted at the sand, clearing it all away until there was nothing more than a soggy mound.
Danny refused to let himself look back out at the sea.
After some time, the natural defenses of the human mind took over, letting him calm, letting the horror fade and go fuzzy. Denial tried to creep in and sweep all he had seen away with a dismissive wave. It was the stress, it said. He was stressed and seeing things. It was his own overactive imagination. Nothing more.
But as comforting as ignorance would have been, this wasn't something Danny could wave away.
He stood and headed back to the beach-house, afraid to turn his back to the sea, peeking behind every so often to make sure there was nothing rising out of the deeps, but not long enough to actually
see.
(...It was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the deadly light into the peace and safety of a new dark age.)As he walked away, he battled with the feeling that was causing him the greatest amount of horror, which was clutching at his heart like some fiendish, slimy wraith with suckered hands.
Kinship. Part of him had something in common with the thing he saw. Like a bug would feel kinship with a windshield--they were all part of the same big highway.
Danny knew full well that he was the bug.
(That is not dead which can eternal lie
And with strange æons even death may die.)